Jan. 8th, 2007

(no subject)oh i really like that. Over stepping my bounds. Basically you know im not supposed to get jealous, cause you know i mean nothing. stupid. almost made me cry. im just someone to fill the time when you have nothing better...oooops this is starting to sound familiar.well now its a little late to be going over there and the weather is going to get worse so who knows when i will go over there. and what the hell ever. we do nothing anyway. ya im bitter...big deal. im the one who got screwd over in the first place.
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Jan. 1st, 2007
how things are...
mood: blah
music: Jr laughing
Im mostly fine at the moment. Hopefully this will last. light and fluffy like cotton candy. That is how i need to approach things. You are rather addicting my pathethic kitty father friend.
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Nov. 26th, 2006
Why
Why did i cry? Because i came face to face with the reality again that i am trying to forget certain things. And that i am at your house to repress certain things. I have no right whats so ever to say or do anything, certainly not cry. That is why i apologized. But i really wanted to be invisible then, and felt pretty much that way. I almost left but i didnt want you to think i was leaving mad. I also dont want you to think i am buying your affection, because im not. I like helping my friends, thats why i have that bank in my drawer at work. Unfortunatly that opens me up to being used. And as you well know im a wuss and i dont stand up for myself all that well.
Sometimes that hollow feeling makes me want to dive into it. I ,like you ,love someone but at least you have hope, mine is all but gone, it has been replaced by pain, and most times when i allow myself to feel it, its a knifetwist. I really would appreciate it if you would write me back, but i understand if you dont.
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Nov. 25th, 2006
(no subject)July 25th
6:10pm They arrived in a red car he was not driving. he came over with marlia. I could tell he had been drinking you can smell it. He asked about when he could have her and i said everyweek during the summer. then he said she eats alot and that she hasnt had a problem, referring to her bowel problem and then he said " I hear you give her some kinda downer" I said nothing. he asked if that could be a side effect of her bowel problem. I said nope. And he said he wanted all of the paperwork on that and i said he didnt need it he didnt give it to her. He said what you cant handle her, getting in my face. I siad it was for school and that i told him years ago. And he said no he didnt know. I had told him years ago. Then he started calling me a bitch and i told the kids to get in the car and we got in the car and he said bitch many times over then he said something really odd "peace pot and microdot" that is a drug reference. We got in the car and he was in the way of the door for jr to close it. Jr is telling him to stop. and i calmly told him if he didnt get out of my car that i would call the police. he proceded to harass some more , i couldnt tell you what he was saying i wanted out of there. He said he wasnt in my car and jr kept telling him to stop. he finally got out of the way and let jr close the door. and we left and i went to the skamania county court house and told two officers there, one officer called chris lanz and he wasnt available till 11 tomorrow and i tried calling klickitat county sherriff but you have to call 911 to get anyone. I got nowhere on this. Marlia said he was in the bar all day. I am frustrated that after something happens and i got to the police its always they cant do anything.

After marlia took her shower she came down and she has a infected cut on the bottom of her right foot. She has open blisters on her second toes on both her feet that hurt really bad, she has a variety of bruises.

July 27 2004
Marlia woke up very sick and told me that she had been throwing up all night, so My dad took her to her doctor. From what marlia told the doctor the doctor felt it was important to call CPS and that she should not go up to her fathers.From talking to the doctor, marlia said that her father hit her in the head with both his sandals at the same time. and that there isnt enough food in the house and that she had to beg for money to eat at the resturant while he was in the bar. And while he was in the bar she went down to the swimming hole with out someone to watch her. And he almost shot a dog.

And that is the end of both of them seeing that lowlife idiot. Marlia told CPS that he smoked pot all the time and left her alone alot and had to scrounge food form other and it stated that the action take was "mother being protective" i interpreted that to mean exactly that and they havent seen him since. he doesnt contact them on their birthdays's. My phone number hasnt changed in all those years. he has sent late birthday card with gift cards in them. Marlia has done better, and so has Jr. i dont regret doing this. Because i didnt do anything wrong here.
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(no subject)June 25
I recieved a call from mr marlow and was promply harassed about not being able to see them. He agreed to let marlia play softball and she was in all stars this year and needed to finish it off. I also had to voice my concerns about there being no food for the kids when they were up there last. He said he had a job and told me not to worry about it and i told him that wasnt possible because they are my kids. June 27 he called me when i was busy and i told him he needed to call me back in about an hour to which he harassed me some more. When he did call back he apologized for his behavior and i told him my three main concerns. No food no supervision and her bowel problems, it seemed that he was understanding. I told him jr was not going to stay more than a weekend from now on due to the lack of supervison and drug influence up there. He has no say in that matter. I told him i didnt want marlia up there while he was working because I have a licensed daycare provider and he doesnt. he seemed to understand.
July 16
I found out that my daycare was not available for marlia the next week. I had planned on only letting her stay the weekend. Amanda and I and the kids arrive there and he gets out of the truck that is drived by someone else. He informs us that he doesnt have to work the next week and i said thats nice because she is available the next week and he said cool. My son then pipes up about if he can stay the week now that he was gonna be home all week, to which i told jr in no uncertain terms that was not going to happen.I then asked him if we could talk privately which we do sometimes. I proceeded to tell him that I wanted assurance that there was food and such and he emmediatly started yelling at me about if i had something to say i should say it in front of the kids. I said fine. he went off about how he should have her the whole summer and I wasnt being fair. When he was done i calmly said if the three things were not being met when she gets back that i would have to make different arrangments (food, supervison, bowels) He started yelling and pointing in my face about how i shouldnt threaten him. then he walks away. I asked Amanda to talk to him and he would listen to her. I went and hugged the kids and he got in the truck. I yelled that i was going to be in bingin on sunday the 18th at six and he better be there or i was going to bring the cops.
July 18
I had went to the bathroom and marlia met me outside the bathroom. when she was done we went out from the bridgemart where jr and scott and amanda were. He turned to me and said he was sorry and all that and i said maybe he should show up sober and walked away. I said i would be there the 25th and he gave me the thumbs up sign.
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(no subject)4/6/03

Called Klickitat around noon today to see if i could reach the kids, since i could not reach them since wednesday. I told scott that i was upset about not knowing where they were at. I told him that i could have called the cops about kidnapping charges. He hung up on me once. I told him not to let this happen again. i told him if he wanted he could call at any time to find out about the kids. He told me that he never knows what is going on in theyre school, and i said that he never asks. i got to say hi to the kids and they had been camping all week. Which i might add during this week it snowed at low elavations.
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(no subject)On the 13th of October when I go to bingin to pick up the kids at 7:00 they were not there. I called Klickitat and Stacey said they left a little while ago. They got there 35 minutes late. Robert got pulled over for speeding.
Now, on the 20th of October I was on my way to bingin to pick up the kids and my father calls me on the cell phone to tell me that Jr had called him. Jr was home alone and didn’t know where his father was and had not seen him in 7 hours. He got a call from Robert who had Marlia. They were in Portland at a birthday party and they truck was broken. They were getting a ride to bingin but they would be late. So I called Jr and told him that I would pick him up in bingin and that if Robert called again give him my cell number and tell him that I was picking Jr up. So I drove to Klickitat. It is past the time we are all supposed to meet in bingin and Mr. Marlow is no where to be found. I drive up the Klickitat canyon get there and jr steps out side with Mr. Marlow. He proceeds to apologize, and tell me that marlia wanted to go to the birthday party, and I said “Do you ever spent time with the kids?” to which jr started to say something and I cut him off. I told Mr. Marlow that it was all bullshit and he turned away from me and walked around to give jr a hug. That was all that was said. I drive back to bingin hoping that Robert would stay in bingin since we got no reception in the canyon and could not speak. We arrive in bingin and marlia is fine, in fact cleaner and prettier than normal. Robert and Stacy and Klickitat all profusely apologize. I was not upset with them, accidents happen. And I repeatedly told them it was alright and just glad that everyone was safe. I took Robert aside without the kids and I told Robert I was not mad at him at all, he was trying to include marlia in a birthday party for his nephew. But that I wanted him to relay my sentiments to Mr. Marlow since he would not listen to me. I said just please see it from my perspective. I go to pick up my kids, jr is home alone and has been alone most of the day, and doesn’t know where Mr. Marlow is. Marlia is 100 miles away in another state and not with her father. Robert said that he understood that if it had been his kids he would feel the same. I hear so much about how Mr. Marlow is off doing things himself and really not spending time with the kids, and defiantly not with jr. It seems he is giving more and more responsibility to Robert and Stacy and they are not the parents in this situation.
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9/13/02


Scott,
I would like to address a few more issues that have been brought to my attention. Sunday night I was informed of some odd behavior Marlia has been exhibiting, and I’m frustrated that you did not tell me about them. Starting a fire in the middle of the night is a major incident that needs to be brought to my attention so that I might be more cautious of things in my home. You may not be aware of her biting Jr. and ripping his shirt. But I assure you those things do not happen at my house and if they did, I would inform you of the dangers that can arise.

Another issue is lack of supervision. I have discussed this concern with you before but I’m really not comforted by the response I received. Two children walking thru town together is not supervision. Marlia is not legally old enough to be alone without an adult present at any time.

Marlia has returned home numerous times without underwear. The first time I attributed to bad timing in laundry. She has informed me that she cannot find clean underwear and believes they are being transferred to your guest’s clothes. She has told me she has asked numerous times and was not listened to. Due to her bowel problems and bedwetting she needs access to clean underwear at all times. This is a neglect of basic need and if not handled immediately, I will be forced to take action.