Sep. 4th, 2006

(no subject)So i am here once again lamenting my feeble existance. I need to find a social hobby. one where i can get with other like minded people to do things with. Then maybe i will have a chance to find someone. Im starting to feel like the desire to find someone is stupid. Im supposed to love myself. big fucking deal. I dont like doing things alone. never have never will. I want to go to the movies with somone who is an adult who isnt my kids and have a meaningful conversation. I go from feeling absolute rage at the feeling of being used to the happy warm feelings of having a close friend that i can share anything with. Of course i have to start leaking form the eyes whenever i start thinking about it, that pisses me off, i hate doing that, its a useless bodily function.